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A

Some things to keep me occupied in the next few weeks/months…

1) Find Wacom and get cracking on the 99 Designs thing. Maybe make some money. (Thanks, Ness, for the link)
2) Renew passport (expires in Nov '09, but it takes a looooong time to get done these days) Home Affairs. That should be fun. I don't even know where it is these days…
3) Study AFAST and ASVAB. Seriously. Going to ace the AFAST (no pun intended). Will need to brush up on my maths and science. And learn American system of measurements etc. Blah. Silly Americans.
4) Get books from the garage – I have shelves, now I must put them to use, damnit. There's a photography book, my N+ and I want to find my LoTR.
5) Get a new tattoo or 3. Not the Big One – going to get that one with the Boy.
6) Write letters (maybe start up with LWT again… ) and send the Boy some more packages, when I know his new address for his new FOB.
7) Make money and Save.
8) Finish paying off debts.
9) Go to shows, but choose the ones I want. No more standing from 8am to 6pm anymore, sorry. Been there, done that. Earned my dues. I'm most grateful to all the people who have welcomed me back and told me that I have been missed. It means a lot.
10) Start running (find pouch for Zune and keys, for my arm – I can't stand running with things in my hands) and get control of my body again. Riding 2 horses, once a week, is just not cutting it. My abs have disappeared. I am sad about that. Very sad. Something must be done.
11) Archive the show backups on my brothers portable hdd. I've had it too long. The shows are old, they need to go onto DVD and get filed away.
12) Keep dreaming. I have so many things I want to do. I _can_ do them.

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hit and miss

Posted: March 8, 2009 in emotion, languages, love, people, relationships
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i hate how i keep missing him online.

i'm getting so frustrated with it.

messages left… and waiting…

how is my life right now?
it sucks.
but i'll deal.
i always do.
bigger issues than annoying work conditions.

i've been reading his letters.
again and again.

his words fill me up.
like water.
keep me calm.
keep me going through another day.

all i can think about is december… december… december….
but i have a lot of questions….

but they can wait.

stay safe out there, soldier boy, i've got my eye on you…

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Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or waterfall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned deep to dust

Melt me down
into big black armour
Leave no trace
Of grace
Just in your honour
Lower me down
to culprit south
Make 'em wash a space in town
For the lead
and the dregs of my bed
I've been sleepin'
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the later parade

Once I wanted to be the greatest
Two fists of solid rock
With brains that could explain
Any feeling
Lower me down
Pin me in
Secure the grounds
For the lead
And the dregs of my bed
I've been sleepin'
For the later parade

Once I wanted to be the greatest
No wind or water fall could stall me
And then came the rush of the flood
The stars at night turned deep to dust…

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BOHICA, baby

Posted: August 9, 2008 in information, languages, military
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sorted

Posted: April 15, 2008 in emotion, languages, love, people, relationships
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a conversation
strange
but
i get it

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so easy to get confused…

so this boy, who i thought previously didn't know i existed, has suddenly shown an interest. a big interest.
i don't know why really.
there was no flirtation on my part, no comments from me
i wished him luck in a new adventure, that was it.

he's always been there .. just off the page… but honestly i didn't think my little star twirled in the same sky.
now. i am confused.
one moment it's flirting and sweet words.
the next i'm being ignored completely.

busy is one thing.. sure.. i get busy.

i don't know. i'm reading signals wrong. i didn't even know there WERE signals in the first place. and now i'm sure i'm reading them wrong.

*sigh*

and there's still the other boy. who is _so_ sweet. so careful of my attention. but _so_ young. and probably leaving anyway.

i feel like this ancient crone sometimes. clawed hands and wrinkled face. reaching…

i don't even want to go there.
i'm so numb here in my brain/heart/soul
like i've been sucked dry. or left in the sun too long.

it's like everything is happening to this person i see through a window
so detached from everything.

it might be what's helping me cope with things, so i'm worried that if i break the "glass" i'm going to lose my marbles.

still tired.
still no camera.

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