Archive for March, 2007

what if…

Posted: March 21, 2007 in emotion, people, relationships
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i know what ifs are dangerous creatures… but i've been having a rush of them lately

what if i just sold everything (including my beloved Broomhilda) and flew one way to the USA or the UK ?

would anyone take me in while i found my niche?

could i make things work there?

what if i just stopped riding, stopped taking photographs and got an office job in the city?

what would happen to me?

what would happen to the world around me?

would i fall apart?

what if i took a chance on the boy? would it kill me this time when it went wrong? because it would. it always does.

what if i stopped saying yes to people and actually started saying no?

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Posted: March 20, 2007 in emotion, people
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a boy in uniform

that southern drawl

a smile like being warm under water

those eyes. i miss them

a close-my-eyes kiss

a gentleman, despite appearances

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Posted: March 10, 2007 in emotion, love, memories, people, relationships
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a strange numb feeling of "it's done, it seems"

while i was trying to so hard to remain calm, my protective wall closed in all by itself.

before i knew it, i was cold. aloof.

it seems that was enough to chase the young man away.

i guess that's a good thing, for his sake.

i really am not worth the trouble i cause.

complex is not always pretty.

sometimes it can just be downright annoying.

it's better this way, i know it.

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What's your musical horoscope?  (Put your player on shuffle and write down the first 10 songs that come up.)
Inspired by Stephanie.  

"If I ain't got you" – Alicia Keys

"If I was your woman/Walk on by" – Alicia Keys (she seems to like popping up in my shuffle…)

"Fluorescent" – Gwen Stefani

"Cold Case End Title" – Michael A Levine

"Angel" – Massive Attack

"Harlem's Nocturne" – Alicia Keys (see? there she is again) (and since it's such a short little "intro" song, i decided to add an eleventh to my horoscope list)

"Even After All" – Jack Johnson

"Not the girl you think you are" – Crowded House (hmmm…)

"Bones" – Radiohead

"Wonderful Life" – Gwen Stefani (she also seems to like being in the list"

"Teardrop" – Massive Attack

Ok, read what you will into those and let me know.

Right now i'm too blah to even bother.

Unless someone has won the lotto for me, then i'll perk up. oh i'll _so_ perk up.

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What's something you should throw away, but can't?

I have too many tshirts.

I tried to throw some out.. but only managed about 12. the rest i cling to – how can you be sentimental about 50 something tshirts?

well i am.

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